Poetry

I can’t breathe My chest tightens My heart beats faster Why do I feel so alone inside? This feeling never leaves How am I to know that you are real? Days turn into weeks Weeks turn into years Why do...

The waves crashing into my emotions They pound the desire right out of me The depths of eternity are without reach Feelings just below the deep waters of uncertainty Anger and sadness crash against...

It's your smile The way the new day dawns You don't notice me watching, but I am watching Every detail, every expression A breath of fresh air, I miss nothing I thank God for the moment I feel my...

An emptiness inside me that won't go away Years and years of desires Looking over the horizon as far as these eyes can see Feeling like the old man on the outside Hiding the little boy in the inside...

I fall to my knees I look away in shame I bury my face in my dirty hands Darkness rolls in The rain drops begin to splatter upon the earth Lightning streaks across the sky I confess, I confess, I...

I lie in the darkness Memories drift through the fog of this life A single tear rolls down my cheek In a moment, my eyes are wet with regret Where did it go wrong And where did it go right So many...

Always alone Always have been alone In a crowd, I am even more alone Will always be alone Die alone Written December 10, 2022 I don't trust you I still feel empty

I don't want to feel your skin I don't want to taste your lips I don't want you inside my head Better to live with the emptiness Better for the heart to ache Better to just go away We both know I...

There is my childhood one from when my forehead made contact with a door knob during a pillow fight There is the one on my stomach when I ran from killer bees and tripped and landed on a tree stump...

Do you see what I see.  I look at you.  You look at me How does it feel to see the pieces slip between my fingers To see all those memories slowly sink into the depths below I wanted life I got pain...

Last night I dreamt about you You were still as pretty as all those years ago I should have told you long ago Your long dark hair Your quirky personality Your pretty smile I will never forget your...

All those emotions stirring my heart Bursting at the seems Needing a place of their own Words coming together in beautiful transformation Cause my heart to sing for joy Expressing my deepest love...

I still think about you when I least expect it Your face appears before me The feelings creep back. Your smile haunts me My stomach goes tight My eyes stare into eternity The tears begin to well I...

How much strength must I have Sure you have strength to move mountains Have you the strength to be me My self hatred of the boy inside me He dare not show his face for shame Hidden in the shadows...

As if it was yesterdayI never forgot what happened, I never forgot the painThe smallest of things brings me back to those days They say time heals all painTry telling that to the broken heartThe...

Every night is the same A single tear rolls down a cheek Every night I am reminded of a lifetime of regrets I would rip out this broken heart to do life differently I look away in absolute shame My...

I imagine your touch How smooth and sensual your skin is to me My fingers trembling Looking into your eyes Seeing eternity in the depths Reflecting my hurt and pain so raw My hand runs up your thigh...

I feel Your presence over me My eyes gaze towards the heavens I have so many questions It has been too long Since I sat in the quiet of Your presence My eyes gaze towards the ground beneath me What...

Just lying in my tent No where to be Listening to all the birds Must have heard over a dozen types Just lying in my tent No where to be Listening to the breeze play through the trees Just lying in...

Why won’t this emptiness go away The roads I travel, the cold I feel Still so empty inside Every night the sun sets Every morning a sun rises Day in day out.  Already experienced ten lifetimes The...

Awareness of my brokenness The feeling of emptiness that never goes away The heavy breathing of my emotions Awareness of my emptiness The feeling of loneliness that never goes away Where did all...

Something broke that day And I didn’t even know it Something broke so deep inside me I have been broken there for ever since So deep the human eye can’t see So deep in my soul. So deep in my heart...

You were asleep in those moments You didn’t know I was watching You were oblivious in those moments I remember those moments Those were important to me You didn’t know I would watch you through the...

I still mourn the loss of that little boy I know I killed a piece of your heart To this day I never forgot No one would listen, no one cared No one fought for you and your heart You have to believe...

My failures overwhelmed me The sick feeling in my stomach returns What happened that this became my story How did this ever become my story I would do anything to change this script How does one...

Looks like a lot of vastness Looks like a lot of trees Looks like a lot of wilderness Is it safe or is it dangerous Cold and inhospitable But it is good and it is freedom The wind cares not which...

My words sound just like yours My words have hurt so many My words cause destruction Who do I turn to Who will give me the words Who will show me the way Do you have the answers I seek Do you have...

I need Your kindness I am desperate I can barely breathe through my tears I need Your gentleness I am so broken I am so exposed My heart was never designed for this My soul cries out for kindness...

Did you not hear me cry out How loud must I scream Will my tears not be enough What other price must I pay Has anyone fought as hard as me Do you forsake me in my darkest hour Am I not worthy Have I...

Would you soften her heart Would you soften her heart towards me If it is Your will Every night I whisper this prayer into the dark Every night I feel the loneliness If it is Your will The day is...

Are you in denial of the pain I feel Do you not know how I have bled There my heart in pieces all over the ground You deny all the young places of my soul There is no freedom for the young places I...

The great constant in life is loss, sorrow and regret Why do you have to add to it Can things not be different between us Is there not enough loss and sorrow in this life Can we not just get through...

Did you ever consider your words Any chance you considered the affect The affect on one’s heart Why would say those words yesterday only to throw those same words out with the trash today Your words...

I can’t explain myself to this world When you know that you don’t fit in And the worst part is that it is probably just in your head When all you ever remember is the pain When tears flow way too...

I see you all. I see you all the time I know you don’t see me at all And that’s ok. I get it Did you know these tears are real Around you they flow on the inside Around me they flow on the outside...

I know it was my words I didn’t mean for my words to kill What have I done Do you not know what I would do to take my words back I would climb the highest mountain I would dive the deepest ocean I...

I wake up fighting the loss Looking down at the pieces of heart in my blood soaked hands I hope to not feel for long Fighting to keep my heart together Meant to fight and protect for your heart Who...