How much strength must I have
Sure you have strength to move mountains
Have you the strength to be me
My self hatred of the boy inside me
He dare not show his face for shame
Hidden in the shadows for all to see
The voices of my accusers
Twisting my desires
The voices inside my head
No matter how valiantly you fight
No matter what the sacrifice
You would not sacrifice
How much have these agreements costed my heart
The agreements that I have been making with my enemies
Giving him places in both my heart and life
The screaming inside my head
The accusing tone from his lips
The shatter of my heart
How much strength must I have!
Written October 10, 2019
