I can’t breathe
My chest tightens
My heart beats faster
Why do I feel so alone inside?
This feeling never leaves
How am I to know that you are real?
Days turn into weeks
Weeks turn into years
Why do I feel the same?
There is no emotion
Just the reality of another day
Did things change? Nothing changes
I can’t hold back the tide
Time catches up to all of us. Especially me
Every day is a new day to remind me of the past
Vivid moments flash before me
Moments seared into my memories
If only I could wake up to things being back to before
How did it ever become this?
Where did I turn wrong?
How did I become so fooled?
I want to wake up
I am begging you, I am crying out to you
I am suffocating inside my soul
Written: March 2, 2021